The Impossible Dream

20 Books That Will Change Your Life | Thought Catalog

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 15:46:53 -0400

20 Books That Will Change Your Life | Thought Catalog

19 Reasons To Avoid Relationships In Your 20s | Thought Catalog

Tue, 11 Jun 2013 13:42:26 -0400

19 Reasons To Avoid Relationships In Your 20s | Thought Catalog:

THIS.

Even though you don’t like to admit it, you know that there are a lot of promises you have broken to yourself and to other people because you needed to do what was important for you to grow up and decide your own path. You have changed your mind a lot, and it didn’t always happen at the best time.

"I just wanna go on more adventures. Be around good energy. Connect with people. Learn new things...."

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 17:01:39 -0400

“I just wanna go on more adventures. Be around good energy. Connect with people. Learn new things. Grow.”

- Kid Cudi (via decadere)

kushandwizdom: EVERYTHING POSITIVE

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 16:51:58 -0400

kushandwizdom:

EVERYTHING POSITIVE

kushandwizdom: EVERYTHING POSITIVE

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 16:33:37 -0400

kushandwizdom:

EVERYTHING POSITIVE

kushandwizdom: EVERYTHING POSITIVE

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 16:32:39 -0400

kushandwizdom:

EVERYTHING POSITIVE

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"It’s strange because I’m not even sure if “I want you back” would be an accurate description of the..."

Sun, 02 Jun 2013 17:28:11 -0400

“It’s strange because I’m not even sure if “I want you back” would be an accurate description of the feelings I have, or a fair statement to make, given the awkward position of refusal it would put you in. It’s more that I miss how easy things were when we were together, and I’d like that sense of confidence back. I’d like the security, the knowledge of who I was and where I was going, and the certainty about what my desires were in life. There are many wonderful things to discover by yourself, but it’s natural to be afraid of loneliness and facing things with no support — and I am afraid. Your love gave me strength to do things that I am now re-learning how to do on my own. I must flex my own my own muscles, remember my own shortcuts, make my own networks.”

- Grey’s Anatomy

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thelovenotebook: INSPIRATION, LOVE & PERSONAL

Tue, 28 May 2013 16:26:56 -0400

thelovenotebook:

INSPIRATION, LOVE & PERSONAL

thelovenotebook: INSPIRATION, LOVE & PERSONAL

Tue, 28 May 2013 16:19:37 -0400

thelovenotebook:

INSPIRATION, LOVE & PERSONAL

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Barcelona: Orientation Day

Wed, 22 May 2013 16:42:00 -0400

Oh my goodness, Barcelona is gorgeous.

My day started off taking the metro with my roommate to the IES center. We ended up being late to the orientation meetings and found out we were in separate ones. Somehow, I got tested and placed into the advanced Spanish section, which was mixed with the heritage speakers. This meant that EVERYTHING we did was in full on Spanish mode. Oh yes, and let me say that the girl to guy ration is absolutely horrific. There are 15 girls to 1 guy. So there ended up being only 2 guys in my whole orientation group. Anyways, like usual, I was lost. Maybe not physically lost like normal, but mentally lost. Suffice to say, orientation was pretty boring since I ended up zoning out. At the end of the meeting we got assigned a scavenger hunt to do with 5 other people. I met back up with my roommate and some other friends before the scavenger hunt and went to get pre paid go phones. Going from a smart phone to a hipster phone (like the ones I had in middle school) was very humbling, to say the least.

My scavenger hunt consisted of three girls from UT, one from Mizzou, and one guy from Penn State. The scavenger hunt was very very long and the walking got very very exhausting. I was able to bond with the people from my group though and I ended up liking them a lot. Most people here are awesome and friendly and totally down to making new friends. We talked about going to visit all these other places in Europe while on our trip. I say most people because not all the people are awesome. Many of the sorority girls I’ve met aren’t the friendliest. And if they are awesome individually, they ditch you right away when their friends come around. So those are some girls I probably won’t be getting very close to. But here are some pictures of the wonderful city I’ll be living in for the next two months.

I somehow managed to spend 300$ all in one day. Transportation and daily living expenses sure do add up. But the shopping here seems fabulous, so I’m not sure how I’m going to keep myself from going broke. There are just so many things that I want and so many more things to do.

Day 1: Barcelona

Tue, 21 May 2013 06:09:25 -0400

So I’m thinking of writing out my daily musings and happenings while I’m in Spain on my Tumblr. This little project (if I can actually stick with it) is going to be for me, so maybe one day I can look back and reminisce and just because I really like to talk about my feelings.

To start off, I started freaking out at the airport. I used a metaphor earlier to describe my exact sentiments. It’s like that moment right before the roller coaster ride and you’re already strapped in and you’re going up that big big hill about to drop and you’re like fuck what was I thinking why would I purposely put myself through this, I change my mind. But then you can’t cause it’s already happening. That’s how I felt about this trip. Even right now, as I’m typing this in my homestay I can’t believe I’m actually here. This whole trip was based off of one spontaneous whim, and ever since then I’ve tried not to think too much about it cause every time I did I would get all anxious and stressed. So yeah I was freaking out big time at the airport and on the plane. I could already tell that there were cliques all around me, all these groups of people who had decided to study abroad with their best friends and their significant others. And I started freaking out even more because it suddenly hit me how by myself I was.

I’m not good at being alone, I’m an only child so I’ve had my fair share of being alone and I try not to be whenever possible. So, you could say I have a lot of best friends. I feel like a big reason why I have like 15 best friends is because I’m used to being let down. And this way, if one of my friends lets me down then I have someone else to be there for me. I don’t hold it against anyone because it’s all understandable, everyone has their own lives and I can’t expect them to always be there for me. This way, I never allow myself to be completely reliant on another person. And sitting there thinking about how I’ve gone from surrounding myself with my favorite people to having no one really freaked me out. But luckily for me soon after, I found a group of people I liked and hopefully we can all be friends.

After the airport, I took a taxi to my homestay. Barcelona reminds me a lot of Taiwan, I think it’s the business and city aspects that make it seem so familiar. Although one thing that’s different is all the Spanish. My years taking all those Spanish classes definitely did not prepare me for this. But I’m either going to sink or swim. I’ve attached a picture of the room I’ll be living in for the next two months. The lady I’m living with seems really nice, I think she’s a professor. But I’m not sure cause I can only understand like 50% of the Spanish anyone speaks. I’m probably going to shower and pass out after writing this post. Another girl that’s with the IES program is also staying here, I’m not sure when she’ll be coming in. I’m excited for my first day, I’ll definitely be exploring later today!

"You only have to forgive once. To resent, you have to do it all day, every day. You have to keep..."

Sat, 18 May 2013 04:06:46 -0400

“You only have to forgive once. To resent, you have to do it all day, every day. You have to keep remembering all the bad things.”

- M.L. Stedman, The Light Between Oceans (via simply-quotes)

mrschriskendall: ”where do you wanna go to dinner?” ”i don’t care” ”ok”

Sat, 18 May 2013 04:01:15 -0400

mrschriskendall:

”where do you wanna go to dinner?”

”i don’t care”

”ok”